Alot of why and can't!!!

Everytime I always ask myself why I'm so different? Why I can't get wad others can in any other area? Why I need to do so much den others n get nth or very little back? Why I need to go though so many things to get things I wan? Why can't I be treated like wad others had? Did I did something wrong? How to make it better? How to be like others? Must I really depend on myself to gt end result? Argh!! I so hate myself n to let myself nt to feel bad I push myself to be better to try to get things myself while others no need as they gt help.. Argh!! Hate this feeling hate wad I'm doing..